Suffering in love

Love is in the joys of life and in the suffering of life.

Sometimes the suffering of our lives seems unbearable, we wonder how am I going to survive this one. But I find, my own suffering is far easier to handle than watching a love one suffer.

As I sit with the man who gave me life, who nurtured me when I was in pain, who fed me, who loved me unconditionally, who went beyond the call of duty to meet my needs, my heart aches. As I watch him experience so much pain and agony. My heart aches beyond measure.

How can I handle and watch any more. I would love to run and hide, to send him off where another would care for him; but what if he is scared, and they don't understand him, or they don't treat him with love and dignity. The inner struggle for me is unbearable.

So I breathe, I breathe in the love of Christ, I breathe out the pain in my heart, my struggle lessons. I breathe again into the pain, I release, it has lessened. I continue to breathe deeply for minutes, now hours. I focus on the Creator of Life.

I read: " Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for yourselves. For my yoke is easy, and my burden light." (Matthew 11:28-30)

I open my hands to let go, knowing and trusting that God has a plan and the plan is good. I sleep.

© 2010 by Becky Benes
www.onenessoflife.com